Feeling Homesick
Every once in a while, I begin to feel Homesick. I don’t think there’s ever a time when I don’t think about Home but sometimes the desire to go is great. I long to see my Father. I can’t imagine the beautiful Home He’s prepared. I know that His eye is ever on me but sometimes it’s easy to lose focus of Him. The world is so real and Heaven seems so far off but I know that He has a plan for me here and I pray to be faithful until the day He calls me. He won’t have to call twice. I will eagerly run into His arms and scan His eyes for approval. I’m sure I’ll want to ask, “Father, are you pleased with me?” but I don’t think I’ll have to ask. His smile will say it all. I know there are days He must shake His head and wonder what He’s going to do with His insecure, bumbling daughter but, even now, He continually reminds me I am loved and if I will but trust Him and follow Him and be willing to be His servant, He will use me and one day I will go Home!
The first Southern Gospel song I ever heard was a song by the Happy Goodman Family called “Only the Sound of His Trumpet.” This week a friend found it on YouTube and emailed me the link. I could have cried. First of all, it brought back memories but it also said what I so often feel. It is “only the sound of His trumpet that keeps me from going Home. If it had been left up to me, I’d been gone such a long time ago.” However, while I’m on this earth, I will strive to work until the work is done and, honestly, I feel blessed that God has entrusted me with so many years and, if He allows me to serve Him a few more decades, I will feel incredibly blessed. I may long for Home at times but I’m not blind to the blessings He’s given me here as well. May He be glorified in my life now and through eternity.
I love that song! I think it was from their Michael English era, and I have the LP. So many good forgotten gems on that one!
You never told me that! That is so not fair!!!
Sony, have you ever heard “Homesick” by MercyMe? We played it at my dad’s funeral – more for us than for him.
In the chorus – “…If Home’s where my heart is, then I’m out of place. Lord, won’t you give me strength to make it through somehow. I’ve never been more Homesick than now.”
It’s like Mark Lowry says: This ain’t Home – this is bootcamp. And..I’ll be glad to finally graduate! 🙂
I’ll have to look up that YouTube clip you mentioned. Sounds great!